Speechless

my dad died this morning. on my birthday. he went in for a liver transplant that i was not made aware of and he died in surgery. i’m just sorta at a loss for words right now because its still such a shock to me. i’m so grateful that we made amends mostly last month. because i have no regrets. and no guilt. its still effin sad though…he is my dad. so i’m leaving in the morning…Hubs and Nettie too…we’ll be in ohio til this weekend. just wanted to let yall know.

xo

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28 Responses to Speechless

  • Alison says:

    Oh, Becky, I am so sorry. Even though the two of you went through many difficult times, he’s still your dad and it hurts to lose him. I’m glad you were able to talk to him about a lot of stuff just recently and that you don’t feel guilt or regret over anything. The important thing is, he knew you loved him. My thoughts are with you and your family, and for what it’s worth, Happy Birthday.

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  • Perugini says:

    I am so sorry for your loss.

    Keep close the good things. He loved you, and he’ll always be with you.

    You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  • CAT says:

    I love you girlie!! Have a safe drive with your family. I will be thinking of you lots. (((hugs)))

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  • Anonymous says:

    I am so sorry Becky. Big hugs.

    Mindy

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  • Leigh says:

    Becky, I’m so so sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my prayers.

    I see Alison mentioned a birthday – when??? Happy belated birthday

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  • Mike says:

    I’m sorry to hear about your loss. It’s good that you made up with him and you have no regrets.

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  • Anonymous says:

    I’m so sorry Becky for your loss –

    CGK

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  • Loren says:

    I’m very sorry for your loss Becky! I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers.

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  • Tehra says:

    Becky…I called and left you a message, but I wanted to post here too and tell you how sorry I am that this happened….and that its on your birthday. I’m sending all of my love and hugs in your direction. Let me know if you need anything. Absolutely anything at all.
    Love you, Muah! xoxoxoxox

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  • jennster says:

    you know how i feel. love you. so much. and i’m just sorry it happened.

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  • Hey, you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I’m glad you got to at least clear the air a little before he passed away.
    I didn’t realize it was your birthday! I’m sure it’s not the best one you’ve had, but I hope you at least enjoy it a bit. When you get back, we’ll do lunch.
    Love ya!!

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  • Anonymous says:

    So very sorry for your loss Becky.

    My prayers go out to you and yours.

    Becky, England. X

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  • Jenn says:

    Becky, I’m so sorry to hear that. I am happy that you were able to make amends with him before this happened.

    Still sucks….

    And Happy Belated Birthday….

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  • Stephanie A. says:

    Oh, Becky. I’m really sorry. You have talked about your dad before and I remember what you had gone through with him. My thoughts are with you. HUGE HUGS.

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  • Phoenix says:

    Oh my god, I’m so sorry. I hope you and your family ahve a safe trip.

    ps. Happy Birthday.

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  • Kim says:

    Delurking to say how very sorry I am about your dad. That is just terrible. I’m glad that you have no regrets, because I know what it’s like to have regrets. It sucks.

    And also, happy birthday….even though it probably doesn’t feel like a very happy day.

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  • Cat says:

    De-lurking to say I’m very sorry for your loss. Sending good thoughts & prayers your way. Have a safe trip.

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  • Mieke says:

    Becky,
    I have been gone and just read your blog. I am so sorry! I hope your doing okay and are holding tight to your family during this time. Things have a way of happening that we don’t always understand, but I hope you have some comfort in knowing you made amends with him. Take Care!

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  • carrie says:

    Oh Becky, I am so incredibly sorry for you and your entire family. My thoughts will be with you.

    There are no words, this has been a awful week for almost everyone I know.

    I hope that means that brighter things are just around the corner.

    Much sympathy,
    Carrie

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  • Twisted DNA says:

    I am very sorry for you Becky! It doesn’t matter what relationship one has with a parent, losing a parent is a very sad, heart-wrenching experience! Keep us posted on how you are doing and feeling.

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  • Karen says:

    So sorry for your loss.

    Keeping you and your family in my prayers.

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  • Kristin says:

    Wow, Becky, what a shock… my thoughts are with you and your family.

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  • Catherine says:

    So very sorry for your loss, Becky. My heart goes out to you and your family.

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  • FFF says:

    Becky, I know you guys went through a lot of tough times, and some not-so-close periods, but I’m sure it is sad and hurts like hell. I’m glad you were able to make amends last month and that you had that moment of closure. I’m so sorry. FFF

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  • i know i’m late leaving this, because i suck at keeping up on blogs.

    i’m so sorry to hear this. i hope the small amount of time that has passed is already helping you heal.

    and yes, he is most definitely with you. you’ll feel it. and you’ll know. :)

    {{{{{{more hugs}}}}}}

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