What I needed?
just when i thought i was going to leave the blogging world for good…again…although i’ve said it a few times before…and i still don’t know what i’m going to do to be honest. but i have to share this with yall.
last night Nimmie got up at 4 am and didn’t go back to sleep after that. and i laid there so frustrated and like complaining in my mind “why won’t you go back to sleep?! what is wrong with you?!” and i was so tired and i JUST WANTED TO SLEEP.
and then i found THIS BLOG. i learned about them the day that their sweet baby girl went to be with God. but i hadn’t read the blog before or after that. so today i decided to go back and read the past couple month’s worth of entries. and now i’m sitting here at work choking back tears. this woman would give anything to be up at 4 am with her baby. anything. her blog is a tribute to her baby. my blog has been a tribute to Nettie, Hubs, our lives together and just recently Nimmie. dare i stop this? dare i end it? what if something happens to my girls and this blog is all i have to go back and read about them?
that scares the crap out of me…the whole ending this and wishing i hadn’t.
i just don’t know.
what i do know? the second i pick up Nimmie today i’m going to hug her extra tight…and kiss Nettie a few extra times. we just don’t get how fragile life is.
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Isn't it amazing how one little thing puts our lives in perspective. I say, you will find a way to keep the memories of your girls, through photographs, emails, letters and their accomplishments through school and life. If the blog is meant to be a part of that, you'll make it work. If not, you'll find other ways to tell their story. Don't be too hard on yourself!
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It changes your outlook on life. I've been semi-buddies with Heather for 9 months maybe and watching/hearing what happened and seeing the aftermath is just horrible.
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