Growing up in a Christian home and in Christian schools I heard just about everything you could hear and learn about God. It’s A LOT of information. And up until about 5 or so years ago, I based everything in my life on those things I learned because I believed them.
God always has been and always will be.
He created the earth and everything in it.
He sent his son, Jesus, who died and rose for us.
Those are pretty much the only 3 things I am 100% sure on anymore. The rest of the things I learned and believed are up in the air for me.
He is our Father. And a few years ago I decided I was going to see the way God views me as I view my children.
He is forgiving.
He is loving.
He is patient.
He is present.
I refuse to attribute negative characteristics toward Him and even more so refuse to use those negative characteristics in raising our children. I used to be so scared that if I said or did one bad thing, God was right there glaring at me. Now? I’m sure he gets disappointed in things I say or do. Do I think He’s constantly glaring at me for them? No. I guess I just feel like He has better things to do like controlling our universe than to worry about “sins” I commit when in actuality, I don’t think they are sins at all.
I can’t really get into everything I think and feel because it’s personal. But I wanted to explain a little more about it because a few weeks ago I mentioned my recent faith adjustment and I figured I’d elaborate.
Some other things God is to me?
He’s the first day of sunshine after days of rain while I drink my coffee.
He’s the sound of Livie’s giggles.
He’s the small voice of comfort to a sick Hannah.
He’s everything good and happy about life and nothing bad. I have altered my views little by little over the past few years and I am at such a content place with God right now.
It feels so good.