its for sure this time, my old boss, Di, has finally passed. it took her a week and 2 days to go but i’m so relieved that she’s finally at peace.

ok i was a tad bit off on the last post. apparantly she’s still breathing. but she’s braindead. i’m not sure how this happens. i guess they’re just waiting now to see whats gonna happen. but how is someone braindead if they’re breathing? does anyone know?

they decided to turn off the machines on my old boss. and from what i’ve heard so far its already taken place today. i really dont have anything else to say about this other than i know she’s in a better place. so Di, rest in peace. we’ll all miss you. xo.

today was officer johnsons funeral. Hubs worked all nite and got to go home for a bit before participating in all this. its now almost 3 pm and he’s been up all nite and all today. and i am so grateful that he had a chance to be involved in this. because i know if anything EVER happened to him it’d mean so much to me to have lines and lines of police officers paying respects to the man i love so much. my heart grieves for his family and his friends. and just for the whole department. its hard to lose one of your own. especially because it makes the dangers of the job so real to everyone. every nite Hubs goes to work and most nites its just like any other job. he goes to work. he comes back home in the morning. granted i dont know every little thing that goes on all nite but for the most part i’m informed and its just the norm. and i can’t help but think about rodney’s wife who was also a police officer getting that call that it was HER husband this time. it breaks my heart. i pray for matts safety all the time. and i guess sometimes i get calloused and just expect him to come home or expect him to always be safe. and i realize that that may not always be the case. but for the sake of keeping my sanity, i can’t dwell on that. and i’m glad that i dont. i haven’t talked to Hubs since i left for work this morning. i can’t wait to hear how the whole day went because this was only the 2nd time he’s participated in an officer’s funeral. and i know he’s proud to be there. i guess all the emotion from last week is carrying to this week. but i feel a bit of closure that rodney’s being buried today. and what made me well up with tears the most today about this today was that there is officers here from NYPD doing some training. and instead they skipped the training and participated in rodney’s funeral because they felt compelled to support their fellow brother. how awesome his wife must have felt when she heard this. it truly is a brotherhood. it makes my heart swell.

nothing has changed still with my old boss so thats still an open issue. but at least rodney has been paid his respects and he’s resting in peace right now. thank you all for bearing with me and being so encouraging. it means alot to me.

thank you all who commented yesterday about rodney. and thank you all for praying. even if you didn’t comment but did pray or think about my old boss and rodney’s family, thank you too. i wanted to also add that rodney was married and he had 5 kids all ranging from 14-19 years old. his funeral will be on wednesday. i too will be thinking about his family and loved ones. nothing new on my old boss. i guess things are still the same. i’m sure i’ll hear more on monday when i go back to work. but thank you all again. xo