Online community
if you’re reading this blog, chances are that you’re a blogger as well. i’m a part of a few online communities. i consider the blog world one of them. i consider my message board friends another. twitter is another. and yes even facebook although on facebook most my friends on there are people i’ve known outside of the internet world…people that are my local friends or family or people back home. i really don’t think people that aren’t into the message board world or the blogging world “get” just how much this whole aspect of the internet connects people. i know back in the 90s the internet had a sort of negative connotation when it came to meeting people. it was very taboo to say you met a guy online…or you’re meeting up with a friend you made online. but nowadays it’s different. and i can honestly say that i have a lot more friends that i’ve met on the internet that i consider close friends than friends that i have locally. or from back home. i started getting into the online world back in 2001 and a couple years after that starting posting at jennster’s forum. and really that’s what opened up a new crazy fun life for me. i went to canada to visit a very close friend of mine and she’s come here to see us. i’ve spent the last 3 summers with jennster and our other friends from her message board. (i’m very sad i won’t be seeing them this summer. but i posted about that already.) then i got into blogging and now i’ve made even more friends i consider REAL friends…i’ve only had the chance to meet one of them but when it comes down to it, y’all are still real friends to me even if we haven’t met. throw in the message board i joined when i was trying to get pregnant and the friends i’ve made there, including one girl who actually lives 10 minutes away from me and now we hang out…and i’ve got a lot of really good girlfriends…that all live in my computer..or my cell phone. they don’t live near me. i don’t see them all the time…or ever. and yet, they’re still my heart. they’re still my companions. they’re still my friends. when i see how fellow bloggers or even my friends on my boards have pulled together for others in times of need or crisis…it’s just amazing to me.
my family doesn’t always get it. and that’s ok. i don’t expect them to. they still poke fun at me for “meeting strangers” on vacations. usually i blow it off but sometimes it really does get to me. because to me, these people aren’t strangers. they’re the people i talk to the most about my problems aside from Hubs. to me they’re not strangers. to me, they’re my friends.
The post where I'm whiney
i was reading jennster’s blog and came across this post. i’ve been doing this a lot lately on our message board BUT i have to do it here as well. i HATE that i’m not seeing my friends this summer. for 3 years straight i’ve spent days with jennster. for 2 summers straight i spent time with our other forum friends. and this summer???? none of us have the money to go anywhere to meet up. and it sucks. i realize that i just got back from a kick ass vacation. and don’t get me wrong…i’m SO glad we went. it was awesome. but yet the fact remains…some of my closest friends are from our forum and i won’t be seeing them this summer. i miss them. terribly.
see why i miss them? *cries*
READ IT!
vacation is rocking. free wifi is rocking. while i’m gone, read jennster’s blog. she’s been recapping her wedding from 2 years ago. there are pictures of me. and stories from when we were all together 2 years ago. it’s a good read. GO NOW!
Update to an update
an update to this post:
crappy friend emailed me last night and pretty much told me that our friendship is over. she’s too far gone….and she’s not at all the person she used to be and doesn’t intend to be but that she’s sorry because she didn’t mean to hurt me and it’s not me, it’s her. i don’t know if she’ll ever get back to that point or not. it’s very sad for me though. i miss her so much. it’s like losing a family member. she WAS family to me. Nettie misses her and still asks about her. i feel like she died. and yet i’m so angry with her too. angry that she’s not willing to change. angry that she’d rather live a destructive life than fix it and have her loved ones back in her life. i just don’t understand.
Bows, Blankets, Toys, Etc.
I’m sure by now yall have noticed the cute bows Nettie and Nimmie wear….and if you look at my flickr maybe even a few of the cute toys and blankets that Nimmie has. these things are custom made for me by my friends and family and i’m here to pimp them out!
if you love the girl’s bows….
and even these were made by her…
then check out laniebugbowtique.etsy.com to get them! she also does custom orders so if you have anything in mind, email her and she can hook you up!
now if blankets, toys and accessories are more your thing…
then you gotta go visit my friend’s site www.kookachu.com! and by the way, she’s offering a 20% off discount if you use the code “TAKE20″ at checkout. Her stuff can also be custom made!
i love to buy stuff from both these girls…and my girls love it!
Update on my friend
remember when i posted this a few weeks ago? so i took some of ya’lls advice and decided that maybe if we just talked things would work out slowly. so i texted her last week and asked her if we could do lunch. she said sure and we planned a day. well just like the trend the past year the day came and went w/o even a word from her, even when i texted her to ask if we were still on for lunch. that evening she wrote back saying she forgot to set her alarm (she works at a bar all night) and felt horrible that she overslept and she’d make it up to me. and i like a jackass said ok and we planned lunch for today. she said she was going to put a reminder in her phone to call me yesterday to plan it. the fact that she even needed a reminder to remember me sucks because it was never like that before. but i let that go. did i hear from her yesterday? no. or today? no. are we going to lunch today? nope. because she ditched me. again. and this is what i get for even letting her in again and actually thinking that she’d come through for me.
Lost friend
i recently pretty much lost a friend of mine. and it hurts so badly. we’ve been friends for years. so so close. and slowly she started to be distant until we barely talked at all. after ignored emails and phone calls from me, out of the blue she emailed me and explained why she’s been absent. the list of reasons killed me. they had nothing to do with me…in fact they shocked me as they had to do with personal choices she had made that i never knew about. it turns out that i never really knew her at all. she had lived a double life for pretty much our whole friendship. and now i’m heartbroken. i feel like i’ve lost a limb….or like a family member…or something else that’s big like that. i have such a huge hole in my life. i got that explanation back in january and slowly i’m getting used to the idea that i’ll never have her back. at least not how she was before because now my eyes are opened to the truth. we say a couple words to eachother now and then but really our friendship is pretty non existant. and i think she wants it that way. she feels like she doesn’t deserve me. she’s made herself a martyr. it’s probably better that we aren’t friends…but it doesn’t change the fact that i miss her, that i’m sad, that she won’t be a huge part of Nimmie’s life like she was of Nettie’s. Nettie still asks about her and i don’t know how to even explain it. the whole situation just sucks. and there’s nothing i can do about it except deal with it and move on.
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