Just thinking
All morning I’ve sat here thinking about things. Just all kinds of different things. It’s a mind wandering kind of day.
First I was thinking about my friend I mentioned in the previous post. I’m still so sad for her…and I’m still so angry that there’s not much I can say or do to fix it. I wish I didn’t have this job to be at today…I wish I had someone to be with my kids all day…I want to leave here and be with my friend. I also know though that she probably doesn’t want company. I know I wouldn’t. So then I go back to feeling awful for her.
Then I started thinking about my babies. My 2 gorgeous babies. Yesterday I was finally able to take them to get some pictures in the blue bonnets. Livie is at a HORRIBLE age for posed pictures. Taking candids of her at home is no problem. Setting up a picture? Major fail. I remember Hannah went through this phase til she was about, oh 2 1/2. So yeah, I’ve got another year of this. I miss my baby who would just sit there and not crawl away and smile at me. Now she cries if I set her down to take a picture…or she moves or crawls away. Such was the case yesterday during our little session. She barely sat there and then she crawled away and then cried. It was a mess. I TRIED to get a picture of both my babies together because lately I’ve not been able to get ANY (Livie is in a “I don’t want my sister anywhere near me” phase right now) of them together. That didn’t work. Hannah’s got her in a death hold and Livie is screaming. I did document this but yeah, not cool. Hannah of course did great EXCEPT that we had NO white shoes for her and so she wore these hideous flip flops I tried to hide in most the photos but couldn’t always. So I sat here thinking about all of this from yesterday and I laughed. I laughed because this is real life. The baby not cooperating. Hannah and her diva self picking out shoes that so didn’t go with what she was wearing. Right down to the grass stain she got on her new dress…it was just something out of a fairy tale life.
I think about people I know who would give an arm for a child. I think about people who have lost a child. I think about people who have sick babies. Then I think about myself…how I was annoyed last night when Livie wouldn’t just let me get a good picture of her in these flowers that we only get for a month every year…our state flower. I think about how last year I had this vision of her running through the flowers and me snapping pictures…except she STILL isn’t walking. I think about how all evening long I avoided editing the photos because I just knew I was going to be disappointed. I’m scolding myself because I suck for thinking that. Sometimes everyday life gets in the way of reality. And the truth is, my reality is pretty amazing. Snotty nosed baby pictures and all.
Tomorrow you’ll see these pictures. I can’t wait to show you.
Weekend recap
This weekend was great. So great I fought a hangover all day yesterday. HAH. Hubs and I had a lot of fun on our weekend away. We missed our babies but we didn’t realize how much we missed eachother until we got out there. It was perfect timing and just a lot of fun. I took this awesome picture of The Alamo when we were out there (San Antonio)….
I love it.
Before we left for our little trip, we threw Hubs’ grandma a surprise party for her 75th birthday. She lives in Ohio but she’s here visiting for 2 months and if you know my family, you know that we will throw a party for every birthday–really, for anything. HAH. I loved the decorations and the cake though.
Livie loved it too 
By the way, remember when I said she’d be walking soon? Scratch that. This girl is NEVER going to walk. Pulling up and walking across furniture is apparently good enough for her. I’m not gonna rush it though. The faster she walks…the faster she grows up. And we all know how I feel about my girls’ growing up lately.
Photo bliss
I realize that a lot of you aren’t photo freaks like me so you probably have a hard time understanding why taking 150 pictures and then spending time editing said photos is bliss for me.
Oh but it is. It truly is.
I had a session last night with 3 ADORABLE kids. I mean, make you swoon, melt your heart, adorable kids.
So much fun. Few things make me actually want to part with my kids, photography being one of them. Weekend trips with Hubs being another. (THIS COMING WEEKEND! WOOT!) So each evening this week I’ll be working on editing these photos with Livie crawling at my feet and Hannah watching Nickelodeon on our bed. Best of both worlds.
But no photo sessions are complete without pictures of my OWN kids.
Livie turned 13 months on Friday. Like officially over the year old hump. *sigh*
“Yes mom I was just screaming my eyes out. But now I’m ok!”
And Hannah? Well she had fun of her own. One of her friends had a limo birthday party for her 7th birthday. I’ve already let Hannah know that her mother isn’t rich and she will not be having a limo birthday party complete with manicures and pedicures and pizza anytime soon.
See? Bliss.
We have steps!
I told y’all yesterday that Livie took a few steps this weekend. The quality of the picture I took of her standing alone sucked but thanks to Hubs’ thinking quickly, we have 2 videos of our baby getting up off the floor on her own and another one of her taking steps to her big sister. These videos melt my heart for 2 reasons.
1. The obvious that hello, she’s getting bigger and I predict full walkage by next week. She continued to take steps all evening last night.
2. She’s walking to Hannah. She loves Hannah so much, even if they nitpick with eachother now and then. The bond they share as sisters melts my heart and turns me to mush because I’m not close to either one of my sisters. It’s nice to see.
These were taken with Hubs phone so the quality sucks but SHE’S ALMOST WALKING!
Now I wish someone would just make me shut up when I’m in a video. Seriously. Anytime I hear my ridiculous baby talk voice it just kills me. I was annoyed at myself watching Hannah’s baby videos a few weeks ago and apparently I didn’t learn my lesson. MAJOR note to self: DO NOT TALK IN VIDEOS!
At this rate, I’ll be chasing after her in no time.
Hold me.
A weekend of firsts
As you all know, Hannah had her first dance competition of the season this weekend. It was her first time to perform a solo on stage. Like ever. IN HER LIFE. It was huge for me. I think it was probably bigger for me than for her. She was cool and calm Saturday morning and it totally did not phase her that she was going to be dancing alone on the stage in front of a lot of people. And judges. JUDGES. People who are judging what you’re doing. That was MAJOR pressure for me. Apparently NOT for her. So, the morning began with getting her ready to do this solo. She was all smiles. So was her doll, Chloe, in her matching warm ups. Yes I had those made. Y’all know me. This should not shock you.
So then came the dance. I sent her backstage with her teacher and went to watch in the audience. They hired a professional photographer to take photos of this. I’m totally ok with this and having to pay for the photos because there was no way I would have been able to take my own anyway. MAJOR ANXIETY. She walked out on that stage and did her thing. She did me SO proud.
So after she finished I ran back to greet her backstage. She came running up to me and threw her arms around me and I hugged her and wiped tears away from my eyes and told her how proud I was of her while she said over and over again “I DID IT! I DID IT MAMA!” It was such an amazing moment. Then she said “Mom, I saw one of the judges nodding yes at me when I was dancing like I was doing good.” I know that just did it for her. What else did it for her?
She had another dance after her solo- her group dance to Charlie and the Chocolate factory.
I didn’t buy any photos from this dance though. I will at the next competition. Btw, W for Wonka. How cute is that?
And so after the high of all that, we got home and relaxed Saturday. Yesterday afternoon Livie decided that she was tired of not being in the spotlight and decided to take 2 steps for us. And also decided that she didn’t need to pull up anymore and figured it’s probably easier to just stand up right from the floor. I did get a picture of this but it’s so crappy since it was taken with my phone in the dark but suffice to say, it was magical.
My children brought me so much joy this weekend. A lot of people think that kids can’t live without their parents. Well, I can’t live without my kids.
Livie’s 1st birthday party
So after all the emotional craziness of Friday I had to settle down and focus on my baby girl’s party. A lot of people were coming and a lot of preparations had to be made. I left work early on Friday and got busy.
First I decided to take some pictures of Livie on her actual birthday and before her party. I originally wanted to do these outside but it was so cold and wet so we did them inside. She would NOT sit still or pose for me so this is the best one I got. To be continued with this because I’m determined to get some of her outside with this tutu on. It’s just too cute to NOT, right?
It was finally Saturday morning…the day of her big party. It wasn’t looking too hot for her apparently at the start.
But then she noticed her dress.
Then she was ready to party.
Big sister Hannah…ALSO ready to party.
(every pose Hannah does is dance related. It still baffles me as to why she actually wants to quit but that’s another post for another day.)
Time to head to Nana’s house to get this party started! We had to set the cakes out.
Livie played while we did all this.
I figured I better get a picture with her before the craziness.
Then it was time to open presents!
Then we sang happy birthday to my not so tiny baby.
After that, it was time for her favorite part of the day. CAKE TIME!
Everything went so well. Livie was so happy and loved her party. It was full of great memories
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